Heath Ledger

As some of you may know, the actor Heath Ledger passed away at the age of 28 today.  In my superficial man-crazy ways, I decided to do a sort of tribute to him...I guess.  For the New York Times article about the whole situation, click here.  I feel for his 2 year old daughter, Matilda...poor thing.  Anyway, Ledger was in such movies as 10 Things I Hate About You, A Knight's Tale, Monster's Ball, Brokeback Mountain, Casanova, The Brothers Grim, and I'm Not There.  Not only was he incredibly good looking (most of the time...) but he was also a great actor.  His IMDB profile is here.  And here are some pics...


In Casanova


In 10 Things I Hate About You


Just..Being...


In Brokeback Mountain

And this one made me lol...

In The Dark Knight, a sequal to Batman Begins. I guess you could try to go as far as to say that the white face paint elevates his bone structure? Maybe that's a stretch.

Anyway, RIP, Heath Ledger.

Applications and Electricity

Damn. A moment ago, I spelled electricity "electricitree". *bangs head on table*

So we sent in the Deerfield Application today. Feels like a ton of bricks has been lifted off my shoulders. It's great, because last week when I was in school, I was so...lost and like...everything seemed hazy. Today the only thing that was hazy was my eyesight when the video we watched in Science class bored me to tears (aha, get it?). For example, last week we learned about the American West...pretty much the only thing I remember is that the Homestead Act was passed in 1862, and that e.e. cummings wrote a poem about Buffallo Bill. We didn't even study him...it is surprising that I got an 82 on the test. Whoopee.

As to electricity, I basically only put it in the title because I thought it was funny that I spelled it wrong in my notes..

Speaking of spelling...the word spelled. I always want to say spelt. I don't even know if it's wrong or right or...multi colored.

How strangely my mind works. Does that sound right?

Nyagashmega.


Instead of a quote, today I will leave you with an amazingly hillarious video. Just watch the whole thing...

Rain and Lost

It was just raining a second ago. I went out. Didn't dance, just stood there. I love the rain. It makes me feel so...its like it's totally ok if I get soaking wet. So I just stood there. And I got pretty soaking wet. I was wearing a cami and shorts, so I flet it drip down my arms..I love that feeling, of rain dripping down your arms, or legs, or neck, or face.

OK so now I can't seem to figure out how to un-underline my words...sorry everybody.

I've started watching Lost. yes, I have succumbed. Im in the middle of the first season. (btw, they have all three seasons online at abc.com right now, you know, leading up to the season 4 premier). It's really good. The guy who plays Jack, Matthew Fox, he went to the High School I am trying to get into, so there's a name I can drop.

I have to go print stuff out for my application. It's done. I am so happy.

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ha that looks funny. anyway, two rain quotes:

"The best thing one can do when it's raining is to let it rain."

--Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

"A poet is someone who stands outside in the rain hoping to be struck by lightning."

--James Dickey

This Sucks.

My dad had a 24 hr. virus the other day. Being sick, bed ridden, miserable, head ache, etc.

Tonight, my mom was painting, started to get dizzy, and is now in bed. I am working on my application/Bio homework. Silence mixed with the pleasant sounds of her being sick, as well.

So guess what? According to logical progression, I should be next. So what do I get to do? Wash my hands every ten minutes, pump in loads of Vitamin C, and wait. Sucks, because I have a terrible headache...

However, I am a sick person. This is because I had a thought that if I was bed ridden, puking, not eating, etc. I would maybe be able to lose some of the Holiday weight, and I would get a day to catch up on sleep.

I have a bad, bad mind. *slaps self across face* Bad Sarah.

Oh, to add on, I am extreeemely hyper. I think it might be because I am almost finished with this application, and I haven't fought with Dad about it yet tonight. An improvement.

And as to my prayer in my last post, things are going well. I haven't slipped yet. It was weird, I had such a bad feeling about how the year will go until about.....164 minutes ago. And then I realized that things aren't so bad, after all. So hopefully, things will just keep going up from here.

Oh, and good news. For the rest of the semester in Bio, we will be studying Human Biology. I am totally psyched. It's gonna be awesome.

And a quote...or two...
We all want progress, but if you're on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; in that case, the man who turns back soonest is the most progressive.

--C.S. Lewis

and...
It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has exceeded our humanity.

--Albert Einstein

So. My second post of the year.

I started my year crying. Watching POTC3 and fighting with my mom. Then there was more work, more fights. Applications to fill out. Essays to write. Vocab to study.

And then there is the problem of whether or not I have changed. Last year was so screwed up for me. Started with bad teachers, then there was the problem of friends, then there was tricking myself into thinking I was hopelessly in love with somebody. There was the denial, the insecurity, the arrogance. The mask. The mask of flirty, obnoxious, better-than-you. So what has changed? I dont know. Over the summer I sort of..really got in touch with who I actually was in an environment that was not political, social, etc. etc. I learned a lot, I grew a lot. Then I get to school, and yeah, I changed. But I slipped. I kept slipping. People would treat me the way they would have treated the old me, so that made me act like i was the year before. And I don't mean to blame it on the people, it's my fault for not staying strong enough. But here we are, another break/change point in my years. A new year. On the Sunday night before going back to school, I pray for the strength to keep from putting on my mask again. Let me hold strong. Let me be who I am, who is kind, but strong. Proud, but empathetic. And let people get the message that I am not who they think I am.

On a lighter note, I have almost completely memorized my monologues for acting. Which is good. It only took me about an hour to get them pretty well down. Which is great because with this whole acting thing, my biggest fear is learning lines. I guess just...read it over and over and over again, then start working at chunks. It came so easily.

In order to take care of some house keeping, FYI the movie fell apart.

OK, here are some song lyrics of a song i totally love right now.
Du Og Meg by Of Montreal.
he fell in love with a boy
Who spoke a second language
And who lived across the ocean
In the evil empire

He awoke her sleeping heart
And swept away the darkness
An acute fear of flying
Couldn't keep her away

Oh, oh, oh

She landed on her feet
And joined his fledgling rock group
As they toured the evil empire
Selling t-shirts at the shows

She taught him what was real
She taught him he was okay
That his thoughts were not just rubbish
That he had something good to give

Still his heart was so ambivalent and hopesick
Of her he wasn't ever sure
But she gave in so sweetly that the spirit said
"Boy, you better go run to her (run to her)"

So when she split, he hopped on a plane
With his parents and his brother
He told her that he loved her
They were married in the summer

Oh, oh, oh

here's a link to the song itself.
http://www.myspace.com/ofmontreal.

Just go to the music player and click on Du Og Meg.

Happy New Year, Everybody.

Hope you all have a good time. Im going to bed.