Painting, I Ching, and Sanskrit.

I am really getting into Indian and Hindu culture and religion. So today, I was bored, so I drew on my white board an ohm symbol surrounded by a lotus, and then I wrote the Hare Krishna mantra in english on top and in sanskrit on the bottom. It was very interesting writing in a language I dont know. I sort of got to know some of the symbols and what they sounded like..mum came in and was all, how does that affect your Judaism and I thought about it. My approach is that all monotheistic religions (and Hindu because it is basically one God with many manifestations) have the same deity, whether they call it Allah, Adonai, God, Krishna, whatever! Anyway, it is all the same thing, just different approaches to the rituals and concepts surronding that God. So I really take it as being religiously diverse, I suppose. I embrace asoects of other religions and sort of adopt them into the mosh pit that is my religion. Dont even get me started on all the details. So I had this awesome picture on my whiteboard and I was like, hey, this is a whiteboard. It will be erased someday. So, I got out my paints, and painted it, with a few minor changes in color and medium. I had so much fun that I also made a painting as a tribute to John Lennon, and another one where I wrote that E.E. Cumming poem, I carry your heart, on a piece of paper in thin sharpie and then I painted differen symbols for love from different parts of the world. I have a western symbol, and African symbol, the chinese symbol, and an ancient Egyptian symbol I just threw in there. These are the symbols...

Western: I did a simple heart.

African: this weird moon and star thing, but not like the Islamic one...It's called an Osram Ne Nsorama..


The Chinese symbol: just google image chinese love symbol..

and the Egyptian symbol is a triangle. Triangles were apparently thought to symbolize knowledge and capacity, the capacity to learn and to love and to feel etc. So it's not directly a love symbol, but it is sort of.

I think my favorite is the ohm. The lennon thing is cool, and the love thing is...meh. It;s ok. whatever. A good idea, but didnt totally work the way I planned it.

Then my dad taught be how to do I Ching, which is this crazy cool fortune-telling type tap-into-the-chi-around-you-and-let-it-guide-you-in-making-the-right-decision thing. You throw coins and different patterns tell you what kind of line to make, and once you have six lines drawn, you go back to the book and look up the number of the line pattern and then you see what it all says. Tres cool. I was too tired to do it tonight.

I look forward to tomorrow, a day of baking cupcakes, carving punpkins, and studying for SSAT.

Aaaah, geek-hood...

So I am most definitely a geek for a number of reasons. The only one necessary for this post is that I am totally in love with the Lord of the Rings books. I mentioned in a post a while ago that the composer of the opera we are doing at the end of the year (The Hobbit) is a totally awesome geek, adn that he looked up the elven-tongue language to write some songs from the opera in it. So I, being me, did some research and I found the name of the language is Sindarin. It is the language that the elves adopted when they came to middle earth. Before that, they spoke quenya, which in their opinion is more beautiful. Anywho, I was looking for pictures of the runes that sindarin is written with, and I found this picture...



I said to myself, if I thought I was a geek, I was nowhere near where these peopel are. This is apparently a picture from http://www.tolkiensociety.com/. The woman is teaching these people how to speak sindarin.

"Pedich i lam edhellen? I eneth nin Riwen Craban Rovan-Hu."
which means...
Do you speak Elvish? My name is Crowned Maiden Raven Wild Dog."

Ok so, what I did was Sarah means princess right? So there you go, crowned maiden. Then my middle name means raven, and my last name came originally from wolfovitch, so I just took wolf and i couldnt find wolf so I made it wild dog.

Man, I think I have too much free time on my hands, or something..

INSPIRATION...from..somewhere..

I have decided that I should have some consistant theme to my blog...not like a theme like ht mustache blog from my last post, but maybe how to survive life in general, and i could throw in tips randomly at how to survive things...as I come across things in life I will help my audience (if i is in existance) understand how to get through it too..

Or I could just start posting lots of pictured of men's facial hair in the 1800s...



so its not the 1800s but its cool.

PostSecret

So I dont know how much you look at postsecret.blogspot.com, but it is such a cool site...try it, they update on Sunday mornings. That and I found this blog about mustaches in the 19th century..http://mustachesofthenineteenthcentury.blogspot.com/ Very entertaining.

I wish I had the energy to start a blog about something meaningful. Instead of just my life. Not like anybody reads it anyway. Except for my silently onlooking mother. Thanks, Ma! Anyway, I had this thought that maybe someday I would just start up an anonymous blog about like...how I go about becoming an actress, or something like that. In the mustache blog it makes it sound like a constant adventure that somebody goes on to strive to discover more about the 19th centuty mustache. How cool! I feel sort of lame doing a blog that isnt important or anything. I mean, hardly anybody reads it, so why bother? I have like..over 80 entries, most of which have never been read, I suppose...but enough self pity.

I took a grammar test, a history test, and a geometry test today. Last night I was up until two because I couldn't sleep. Just staring at the ceiling, you know? It suuucked. And Im kind of angry at the world right now. I hate myself for it, I feel lik such a coldhearted bitch.

I have been thinking lately about how I will work my way into the social ladder at my new school next year. Who will I try to make friends with? Who will I avoid? Will there be any love at first sight? Sorry, had to throw it in there...



I have had this weird feeling that I want to strangle everybody in sight. I think it's called PMS. I was weird today. Tres bipolar and mood swing-y. But Opera was great! I met the composer of the piece we are peforming at the end of the year, Dean Burry, he is soo COOL! He is like..such a geek, and I mean that in the absolute best sense of the term. The music is incredible, all weird and dissonant, and crazy..but still totally gorgeous and magical, which of course it should be since it is an opera of The Hobbit by Tolkien..But he wrote a song in the opera in ELVISH! OR ELVEN or Elvish tonge or whatever it is called. It has a name, I dont remember it though. I am so excited about the whole thing, I can hardly contain myself.

WHEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pros and Cons of 10-20-07

Cons:
1. I ate too much sugar and not enough healthy food.
2. I ran the money on my debit card down.
3. I found out my ex friend gave me a blank gift card. Cruel.
4. I shopped for a cross pendant! (they werent for me, with a friend for a different friend)
5. I found out I cant have a Halloween party..
6. My iPod wont load songs that I have in iTunes and I dont know why.
7. I had to do prep for the SSAT.
8. I killed my hand doing exercises on the cello.
9. Turns out I dont fit into the size of dress at Macys that I thought I would fit into (sigh).
10. My mom wont let me bake tomorrow.
11. My dad stopped me from watching Star Wars Episode III so that he could watch the Baseball game. I mean, he never watches baseball, but I guess there is some sentimental connection since it was the Red Sox and all.

PROS!
1. I bought two new shirts and a necklace.
2. Despite eating too much sugar, the sugar was in the form of delicious middle eastern pastries with cashews in them.
3. Even though I didnt fit into them, the dresses I tried on were all truly heinous, so it doesnt matter.
4. I approached life with my new seize-any-opportunity-that-comes-your-way-and-live-impulsively-within-reason thing. That's why I was trying on ugly dresses that I wouldnt buy anyway at Macy's.
5. I rocked out to Oh Darling! in the car with my mom.
6. I got to eat falafel and greek salad from Sahara!
7. I watched Sixteen Candles. What an awesome movie!
8. I got clear on something that I needed to know for the SSAT and am now quite confident about it.
9. I got to go to the mall. Which actually wasnt so great, a tad bit disappointing, but I did get stuff on sale, so thats always good.
10. My mom likes what I got.
11. I cleaned my room. Always makes me feel important to walk into a clean room...
12. I made some little decoration things...little black cut out rats that I will put on the walls and wait to see what my parents say..
13. I got to watch Bridget Jones' Diary too, which always makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside.
14. I got girl talk time with Melody when we went shopping at the mall. Tres fun.

So today was a good day.

Soul Mate

NOTE: THIS POST IS FROM A WHILE AGO, IT ENDED UP BEING SAVED AS A DRAFT, SO HERE IT IS...

OK. This whole post might sound like a cliche. Anyway, I was thinking last night about my dream guy, you know to get to sleep, and I had this immense happiness at the thought, but I also felt empty somehow. Then, for just a moment, I felt like I was...whole again. God, this sounds so..made-for-TV-movie. Whatever. Anyway, it was this strange feeling that I was in touch somehow with whoever my soul mate..(AUGH THIS IS GETTING GROSS). But you guys get it. Right? It was really weird. DO you believe in soul mates?

Wouldn;t it be funny if your soul mate was like..some person who would totally not be fit for you according to today's social standards? Like, they are in their 80s and you are in your 20s...hm.

Holy crap

the funniest thing just happened. OK, so Dan was like, here is a quote I like:

"The stupid man talks about people. The Average man talks about events. The Intelligent man talks about Ideas."

SO I was like

"The Woman can talk about all three and still command respect"

SO he said that he saw it as...

"The stupid man says 'That person is a loser.' The Average Man says 'Did you hear what that person said?' And the Intelligent person says 'Why would that person do that?'"

So then I came back with "that is exactly how my rants go! For example...

"Ugh, that girls is such a bitch. I can't believe she said what she said...I mean really, why would she say something like that?!"

*basks in own brilliance*

So I am going to interview myself.

Name: Sarah
Dream Profession: Film or TV actress
Describe yourself in one word: Indescribable
Three material things you like: Roses, Cake, Music (is that considered material?)
Three things (anythings) that you hate: Ignorance, rap, arugula.
What do you think is the meaning of life: I think that the meaning of life is to create as much peaceful good joy in the world (as opposed to sadistic joy).
Who are your heros: Seriously? Be prepared. OK. God, Queen Elizabeth I, John Lennon, Tim Gunn, Jon Stewart, Dr. Dean, The great grandmother I never knew (baby when she died. She sounds like she was an incredible grandmother, the kind I want to be, plus the whole jewish grandmother bit that I will play), Ingrid Michaelson, Mozart, Beethoven, Puccini. To name a few.
Favorite Music Genre: Musi of the Indie/Alternative persuasion...
Current Favorite Quote: I don't think I've ever had a toilet orange..."-Dr. Dean

Halloween.

Halloween is the most awesomest holiday. I mean, seriously. What other holiday can you get dressed up, look like a fool, act like a fool, eat lots of candy, and be able to get away with it? For somebody who loves to play different roles, Halloween is heaven. I was talking about me. So the one thing I hate is living in Florida, because Halloween is HOT! Like, Temperature!! Stupid. I bought the Halloween issue of Martha Stewart Living. I am such a Martha Hoor. I love all her stuff at Michael's... Halloween also brings on "the Holidays," which is always good.

I heard somewhere that lots of suicides take place during the Holidays. I think that would be because they are under so much pressure from having to entertain their families. I know for some people, just BEING around their families is insanely trying. I love my family. I mean, yeah, there are a few who get on my nerves, but I bet there are a few on whose nerves I get on. Yeah. So if I were going to choose a time to commit suicide, it probably wouldn't be during the Holidays. I mean, how distasteful! Here you are, your whole family is there, and what would be more scandalous and embarassing! I guess if I were suicidally depressed I wouldnt really give a damn...but still. That would put a damper on things, no? AND, I am pretty sure committing suicide is like...extremely bad with regard to Karma. Unless you dont believe in that kind of thing. WHich you might not if you are suicidal. Most of the people I know who believe in Karma are pretty happy people. That is probably why they believe in Karma! Like, a cycle. If you are happy, you are like, oh, it's because of Karma! and If you believe in Karma, you will always try to do good things, which will make you happy. Get it? (now you say "got it" and then I say..) Good. Haha, you will totally be like wtf when you read that if you haven't seen the Court Jester. Anyway, I would probably commit suicide when I was bored. If I did commit suicide. Which really isnt something I am considering.

I read this thing the other day and it was about what a friend is at different stages of your life. It mademe think about all the friends I am leaving by moving. I am so ready to move though. I am just...I dont know. Sick of Florida. I guess you could say I am bored, but I wouldnt put it that way. It seems a bit crude. I am taking the SSAT in a few weeks. It seems really easy, but I am still a little worried.

OH OH OH I am putting up Halloween decorations this weekend..and have I mentioned that I am an amazing baker and decorater of cakes?

Worthlessness

The other night, I felt this sudden, terrible feel of worthlessness...it is a selfish fear, I kow, but I was scared that all of thee things I have planned for myself, all these things I want to do, places I want to see, and people I want to meet...I wouldnt be able to do, see or meet them. I am ambitious, I do expect a lot from myself, and I am strong willed, but I am scared, as well. I mustn't let this fear get in my way, though. I am doing great in acting, I am hopeful for the future, I have faith in myself.

I think what mya have brought it on was watching a DVD of the memorial concert for George Harrison, Concert for George. The whole thing is so great..it is all of his friends and son performing different music he wrote. Some people who took part in it are his son, Dhani, his fellow Beatles, Paul McCartney and Ringo Starr, Eric Clapton, Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers, Ravi Shankar and his daughter, and so on. Here is the end, including some final words from Dhani and Paul. Note: Olivia was Geroge's wife.



It made me cry the other night.

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

"Everything in this room is eatable. Even I'm eatable! But that is called cannibalism, my dear children, and is in fact frowned upon in most societies."

I love that movie. I think I like the old one better than the new one, less creepy, but the new one is great as itself, as opposed to a movie based on a book, and Johnny Depp is a great actor, so who could complain, right?

Top Shop.

http://www.topshop.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/TopCategoriesDisplay?storeId=12556&catalogId=19551


Go ahead. Explore a bit. I swear to God, when I am a rich and famous actress, I will seriously do all my shopping there. Well, not all, but a lot.

Have I mentioned..

how divinely happy I am? I feel as if a weight of bricks has been lifted from my shoulders...I haven;t been actually carefree and happy in...almost a year? It's wonderful. Wonderful.

Except right now I am exhausted and have a killer headache. Ah, life..

Please, accept...

my apology for saying pwnage (crap, I said it again) in my previous entry. It just...came out.

Again, please accept my most heartfelt apology. Is that the right usage? Either way..

PIRATES!

Sarah is so amazing, so she decided to take a crossword puzzle about the constitution and fill it with the word pirate or pirates or pirate! or pirates! Isn't that amazing? I think so...

I know it's hard to see and it's backwards and all, but try, try to see it. Haha, look, there's my eye!!! Heehee...and my sucky manicure...OK, back to studying for bio and history. Woot!

I memorized ALL the presidents. In order. pwnage.

Holidays

They need to hurry up and get here. And it is waaay too hot for October. Seriously.
I mean, I have all this fall stuff I want to wear, and can I? NOOOOOO because stupid Florida is stupid HOT.AAAAUGH!

Love Sucks.

I mean, really. There is this brilliant line in Moonstruck that says "Loretta, I love you. Not like they told you love is, and I didn't know this either, but love don't make things nice - it ruins everything. It breaks your heart. It makes things a mess. We aren't here to make things perfect. The snowflakes are perfect. The stars are perfect. Not us. Not us! We are here to ruin ourselves and to break our hearts and love the wrong people and *die*. The storybooks are *bullshit*. Now I want you to come upstairs with me and *get* in my bed!"

It explains it perfectly. Love sucks. I can really say no more. But let me tell you, falling out of love is hard to do.